omfg.

im wondering whether i should quit my job. i mean, it's fun and all but i'm gettin too worn out. haha. and my reasons for stayin in the first place are all leavin one by one, in search of better jobs. sigh.. so how? ha.

uni applications. pain in the ass too. never been good at promoting myself and now i'm supposed to make me sound like someone worthy of the nobel prize. *roar.

i hate this rollercoaster of emotions. one moment you say this, but then your actions sing a totally different tune. why start when you never had the intention of completin it? are you bein intentionally oblivious?
perhaps it's no one's fault but my own. for interpreting your actions to be more than what they seem. for lettin myself flutter so easily.

it's makin my head and heart hurt. ugh.

*bawls where's sebastian! at least he distracted me from all those serious stuff. i miss the mornings! :(

and lol. i know i call you an asshole often. but you really say the best things sometimes, to make me feel a lil better bout myself. much love (: