omfg.

don't lead me on.
i don't wanna know.
shit. that was fun. interestin. freeaaakkin fun?!
hahaha.
okay, albeit we agreed it'll be a one time thing, and one time thing only. but shittt.. lol :D pity she wasn't in the mood, you said? haha. someone up there must really love me today. thanks for takin me away for a while, lessenin the hurt a little. haha. god, you.

well, beginnin of today wasnt all that great. i found out bout things which would probably have been better left, undiscovered. now i see why, "curiosity killed the cat." i really really really didn't want to know. but hey, like she told me, it wasn't mine to begin with. so what gives me the right to feel hurt, right? heh. but okay, i'll shake it off :)
anyway, i guess i had known along, i jus didn't want to believe it. i mean it seems so... schizophrenic to enjoy somethin so much, and yet loathe it some other times. maybe i'm jus naive.
well it was kinda like, a slap back to reality. but better now than later huh? mmm.

okay i've rambled enough.
oh i had a haircut too! not much, but.. still made me feel somewhat better. haha.