omfg.

i moved.

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've been feelin pretty out of it lately. i feel like 'm on this never ending emotional roller coaster. and people gettin on my nerves far too easily. i don't snap though. i don't think i ever do. haha. i just.. brood.

a few term papers and presentations are over. 9999 more term papers and presentations to go. woofuckinhoo.

kyle's been awful sweet recently. haha. despite tauntin me with his gorgeous pictures of asia. have a safe trip round the world, ky. i so can't wait to go on mine.
phu and kristofer have been teachin me basic swedish. hahaha. fun. tjena! hur mår du? jag heter jasmin och kommer från singapore. jag talar svenska nu!

i love ikea! went there with bingo to get some stuff this mornin. she was actin a little loony. hahaha. reminded me of the silly things maine, rach and i did at ikea malmö. haha. anyway, we had the good ole hotdogs after and then i spotted the ballerina cookies at the swedish food section. OMG. haha. i was super happy :) too bad there's no fanta free. lol.

finally met up with min today. photoshoot at arab street. haha. had a good time :)
've also been seein amanda quite a bit at her events, rk-ing. love.
studyin sessions with jesselyn.
hangin out, goin random places with bingo.
lunchin, hangin out with drey.
i reallyreally love my girlfriends :)
can't wait for next saturday!

i love my talks with bingo :) we cancerians, are a sensitive bunch. haha.. blessing and a curse at the same time, indeed.

i hate it when good friends lie. or when they say one thing and do another. it really puts me off. but 've decided that i shouldn't be too bothered by such things anymore. if you don't wanna be upfront about it, then so be it :) and if you dont feel the need to put in any effort at all, then so be it :)

1:58am
late night randomness.

craving for prata (:

'm suddenly missin sweden a little. well, more than a little. but not too much. haha. it's got to be the aftermath of today's marketing meeting with the swedish group mates. i miss the brightening of the sky at 3am. the setting of the sun at 10pm.

anyway, lots to do at school. dsc term paper due next friday. i havent even decided on my topic. i will start tmr. i hope. haha. marketing and southeast presentation next week too. and then management the followin week. group and individual. *roars
also, 'm tremendously afraid to get my finance mid term back. sighs. i just wanna pass :( god, i used to love math. :(

i hate school :(

i love the winchester boys.

i really want man united's jersey.

i wanna club.

kyle's on yet another pretty island.
i hope he gets mauled by a tiger.

ryan's gettin prettier and prettier each time he uploads a new picture. lol.

the new air-con is amazing. i wear my hoodie to sleep.

and i reallyreally missyou :(

've been going to bed between 5 to 730am ever since i got back. haha. tried to get my body to adjust back by going to bed at 130 but i just kept tossing and turning till 3. got frustrated so i got back up.

anyway, it's been 8 days since i got back. haven't really been doing much. unpackin and reorganising my stuff, choosing pictures from the 1000++ that i have so i can develop them, arrangin and organisin my europe scrapbook stuff, met up with a few people, belated birthday celebrations. haha. sweet :) watchin an indie movie about a young gay filipino boy, going back to hog's to work.
but it still doesn't keep me from thinkin bout manchester, the hatters, london, liverpool yha, old trafford, malmo, chocolate factory, stippes and well, you know. haha. miss it like fuck. i guess it's gonna take me a few weeks to get over this whole "summer break is over" funk. lol. sucks monkey ass balls.
i was thinkin, if i hadn't spent that much time in malmo, i wouldn't have missed it so much. but we were there for quite some time. we got to know the place well, even managed to blend in with the locals on occasion. made friends. that's why it sucked so bad to leave.

in any case, 'm so awfully glad i got the chance to travel all the way there to spend my summer break. 3 countries and 10 cities. 've seen and learnt so much. england: london, manchester, liverpool, birmingham, oxford. sweden: stockholm, malmo, lund, ystad. denmark: copenhagen.
england and sweden were just amazingly awesome. from the rich history and culture to the people, the food and the shopping. haha. well they have their downsides too. homeless people are a common sight and the streets aren't safe at night.
and not to forget what uncle said, "you wouldn't like sweden so much, if you came during winter". only 7-8 hours of daylight. what?! haha.

but it certainly was fun staying together for such a long time with maine and rachael. haha. i think we all got along pretty good actually, aside from rach's grumpiness when we wake her mid-sleep at 6am after coming home from chocolate factory. lol :)
maine and i adjusted to each other's habits pretty fast, nodding in agreement to all the "it's so annoying!" during the respective "time of the month". haha. not bein able to find my stuff and havin her tell me exactly where it is, me picking up her choice words and using them unconsciously. well i just got so used to havin her by my side that it felt pretty weird for abit when i got back here and well, she wasn't anymore. it's the most time we've spent with each other and man, i can't wait to do it again sometime :)
they made my 20th such an awesome one too. rach made spiked chocolate shots for me and they both counted down to my 20th. not to mention snapping ugly pictures of the last minutes of me being 19. haha. too sweet :)
and then, auntie going out at 8am just to get me a birthday cake from a popular bakery, driving up to kaseberga for lunch at a place where it's so popular people drive for miles, just to have a taste of their fish and going to this quaint cafe for coffee and a cookies buffet. man, i was so happily stuffed :) and then uncle driving us to club at chocolate factory because in his words "it's her birthday". LOL :)

one thing that this trip has made so starkingly obvious to me, is my desire to travel and explore all of europe. and settle down somewhere there in the very distant future. lol. we met backpackers in england, who are working and traveling round europe at the same time. they stay in a city for a month or maybe less, work, explore, save up and move on to another. i think that's what 'm gonna do once i leave NUS in 2 years. work and travel for 1 1/2 years maybe. then try to get into law school by 24 or 25. heh.
which means, there goes my childhood dream of gettin hitched by 24 and startin a family by 27. LOL :)

've also had my very first summer love in lovely malmo. haha. a pretty short but awfully sweet memory and the 20th & 21st of july '07 will be nights i remember for a long time to come. we met a whole bunch of fun, cute and amazing people but none seemed to have gotten to me the way he did. there was something about him that was so endearingly genuine that i couldn't help but let him in. between maine and me, let's just say, a-t-t-e-n-t-i-o-n. lol :) i do miss him something fierce though. the way he holds my hand, the way he hugs me, how he sings into my ear and how i had to stand on my tippy toes, askin for a kiss. and he rocks at playing ping pong too. lol :)
aiight but with that said, a summer love is just what it is, a summer love. 'll remember and treasure it but we've all got to move on someway or another. i think he just might have shown me what i really like in a guy. and maybe someday 'll find someone just as awesome.

and with that, here's a last. goodbye summer. you've been fuckin awesome. see you next year :D

so 'm back in singapore. sucks monkey ass balls.

'm missin you somethin crazy. drivin me nuts.